things to deal with

6600 credit card bill
450 phone bill
estimated 600 phone bill
800 glasses bill
600 that I owe my parents
850 for rent,

moving my entire household
Moving in with my drug addict boyfriend
trying to not become an addict myself
old insecurities
trust issues (although can you really blame me for not trusting the guy??)
keeping my family in my life, while hiding the truth from them
not telling my boyfriend that I hate him, because I love him soo much, but there are times...
facing up to the fact that I'm not me anymore... or maybe I'm more me...

either way I've changed

Things to clear up:

4800 credit card bill
800 lenscrafters bill
600 that I owe my parents for rent

abandonment issues
need for love
God - am I really living the life I think I am?
Addictions... too many to name, too destructive to care...
weight - maybe start eating again??
living arangements - wtf am I doing up here??

I'm confused, and overwhelmed, and sad. Maybe not the best time to focus on this crap....

blah

thought i'd make another one of these things, to write my goals and progress with them, and such, and now i'm too lazy to write it all out.

more later I'm sure